Getting over the hump of the blog....
Hi everyone, thank you for checking in, for the calls, and the emails. I love you and I'm sorry it's been so long since I've posted out here. Most of you know that earlier this year, my brother John died suddenly (within ten days) of being hospitalized for a rare blood disorder that no one knew he had, not even him. While that's been such a thing to endure as a sister, it's been even harder to watch my parents go through. John was a big part of my life, and my blog audience. It's been hard to get out here and realize that a big part of the reason I blog was to connect to him and that is well, gone forever. I post out here because my family and friends are far away from my daily life and so this would give us ways to connect and share pictures of what we're up to. I've not had much inspiration in the last five or six months to be out here, but I feel like I'm coming out of a fog. Bear with me, and again thank you. I've not felt like I could post out here until I got to say this. I realize it's not poetic or anything like that...it just really sucks and it's really hard to run from the thoughts of the reality of how torn apart our family is. We've tried gardening and making improvements on our home. We've made new friends and doing good things with old ones. We've tried celebrating the milestones of our little miss Evy and even conceiving another baby due in late April, or early May. We've tried celebrating holidays and birthdays and anniversaries. While we can see clearly how wonderful these other things and events are, there is still this underlying current of intense grief. Please don't post any comments to this post. Writing it was hard enough. I know the kind words and if you want to share something with me please email or call me directly but I don't really want to hash out this post anymore than I've done already. Now, it's time to get into my day and just be happy that I made this post so it can drop away from my mind and I can find this blog world a place of inspiration and sharing.
Love to you all.
Love to you all.
















